May 2006

Who would ever think I'd be here now being who I am living alone, no-one to hold but happy to do it, having to be the only hope of protection for the children i live for in the middle of the night, thinking and worrien about them all day everyday, have you ever lived alone? always having the lives, health and wellbeing of loved ones always being in your hands, not just for a day or maybe a week, would you cope? and be appricated for it or even know your reward is your childrens love they show you when your down to make you feel better so you let others be praised for their efforts because your just doing your job, but should be praised when you help others and do their job too? I guess thats what love is (was) Maybe I'm not that selfish after all I have been but will continue learning for without me they can't grow, so (george) just sit back and watch us grow together.

Lyrics to Evanessence My Immortal

I'M SO TIRED OF BEING HERE
SUPPRESSED BY ALL MY CHILDISH FEARS
AND IF YOU HAVE TO LEAVE
I WISH THAT YOU WOULD JUST LEAVE
CAUSE PRESSENCE STILL LINGERS HERE
AND IT WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

(CHORUS)
THESE WOUNDS WON'T SEEM HEAL
THIS PAIN IS JUST TO REAL
THERE'S JUST TO MUCH THAT TIME CANNOT ERASE
WHEN YOU CRY 
I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS
WHEN YOU SCREAM 
I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS
I HELD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS
AND YOU STILL HAVE ALL OF ME

YOU USED TO CAPIVATE ME BY YOUR RESSENATING LINES
NOW I'M BOUND BY THE LIFE YOU LEFT BEHIND
YOUR FACE AT ONCE, MY ONCE PLEASENT DREAMS
YOUR VOICE HAS CHASE AWAY ALL THE SANITY IN ME

(CHORUS)

I TRIED SO HARD TO TELL MYSELF
THAT YOUR GONE
BUT THOUGH YOUR STILL WITH ME
I'VE BEEN ALONE
I'M ALONE

WHEN YOU CRY 
I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS
WHEN YOU SCREAM
I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS
I HELD YOU HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS
AND YOU STILL STILL HAVE 
ALL OF ME

***You Are 98% Evil***

You're the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you!

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Eskimo Joe lyrics - Black Fingernails Red Wine lyrics -

Black Fingernails, red wine
I wanna make you
All mine
A lot of people underground
You wanna get there
You gotta go straight down, straight down

There's a culture everywhere
Smoke clouds hang in the air
It's so loud, can't hear you talk
You and I should take a walk downtown
Straight down, Downtown, Straight down

The argument over god continues
In this house
All of us stand and point our fingers
At the ground
All of us stand and point our fingers
Straight down

Red letter day
Black heart
It's gonna tear you all apart
So loud, can't hear you call
You and I are gonna fall straight down

Straight down, Downtown, Straight down

The argument over god continues
In this house
All of us stand and point our fingers
At the ground
The argument overall continues
In this house
All of us stand and point our fingers
Straight down, Straight down, Straight down

Black Fingernails, red wine
I wanna make you
All mine
A lot of people underground
You wanna get there
You gotta go straight down.....

The argument over god continues
In this house
All of us stand and point our fingers
At the ground
The argument overall continues
In this house
All of us stand and point our fingers
Straight down, Straight down, Straight down

    JOHNNY’S POEM

STARING INTO THE MIRROR,

SHED A SINGLE TEAR,

WISHING WHO YOU REALLY ARE,

WOULD SUDDENLY REAPPEAR,

A SOUL SO BROKEN INSIDE,

EVERYDAY NOW SEEMS SEREAL,

SO DESPERATE TO RETURN,

INTO THE WORLD OF THE REAL,

LOST IN THE LABRINYTH,

SEARCHING FOR AN ESCAPE,

SEEK WITH ALL YOUR EFFORT,

BUT NO PROGESS YOU SEEM TO MAKE,

WAY OFF INTO THE DISTANCE,

YOU CAN SEE AN OPEN DOOR,

A HELPING HAND OF A FRIEND,

OF WHOM YOU TRULLY ADORE,

SHE IS HOLDING THE DOOR OPEN,

WITH THE WORDS SHE NEEDS TO SPEAK,

EXPLAINS WITH ALL HER HONESTY,

WHY YOUR DAY ARE DARK AND BLEAK,

SHE IS YOUR GUARDING ANGEL,

GUIDING YOU THROUGH THE MIST,

HELPING YOU TO RETURN INTO THE WORLD,

WHERE ONLY REALITY EXISTS,

YOU SHARE AN UNDISCRIBLE CONNECTION,

A COMPATABLE SACRED BOND,

NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE,

WHAT IT IS OR WHERE IT CAME FROM,

AS YOU STARE INTO THE MIRROR,

SHE WILL WIPE AWAY THE TEAR,

GUIDE YOU THROUGH THESE DARK DAYS,

SO THE REAL YOU WILL REAPPEAR.

Just Feel Better - Santana
She said I feel stranded 
And I can't tell anymore 
If we coming or I'm going 
It's not how I planed it 
I've got the key to the door 
But it just won't open 

And I know, I know, I know 
Part of me says let it go 
That life happens for a reason 
I don't, I don't, I don't 
It goes I never went before 
But this time, this time 

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better 
Tell me what to do 
You know I can't see through the haze around me 
And I do anything that just feel better 

And I can't find my way 
Girl I need a change 
And I do anything that just feel better 
Any little thing that just feel better 

She said I need you to hold me 
I'm a little far from the shore 
And I'm afraid of sinking 
You're the only one who knows me 
And who doesn't ignore 
That my soul is weeping 

I know, I know, I know 
Part of me says let it go 
Everything must have it seasons 
Round and round it goes 
And every day's a one before 
But this time, this time 

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better 
Tell me what to do 
You know I can't see through the haze around me 
And I do anything that just feel better 

And I can't find my way 
God I need a change 
And I do anything that just feel better 
Any little thing that just feel better 

Long try to holding on 
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah 
It's really getting nowhere 
I think I need a little help this time! 

Yeah, [guitar solo] 

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better 
Tell me what to do 
You know I can't see through the haze around me 
And I do anything that just feel better 

And I can't find my way 
Girl I need a change 
And I do anything that just feel better 
Any little thing that just feel better